As I write this, I my head and throat are aching and I'm sitting upright in bed. There's a cup of peppermint tea and several cough drop wrappers on my nightstand. Yes, I'm sick. I began feeling it on Wednesday. Thursday morning it was worse, but I forced myself to write 3,000 words on Darkridge Hall. Friday it was about the same, but Saturday I woke up feeling absolutely miserable. Today I am a little better, but my energy is sapped and the creative juices are flowing like molasses.
So, I must face a fact: I might fail in reaching 60,000 words this month and completing Darkridge Hall. My original goal was to write a novel a month for twelve months, but I notice that the hashtag I chose for it, #12NovelsIn12Months, does not make that distinction. I can cheat and say I'll write those twelve anytime during the twelve months. Sure, it's semantic justification, but if it keeps me from feeling like a failure, so be it. Anyway, if I finish Darkridge Hall sometime in early December, what difference will a few days have made in the long run? It means I'll have to be diligent to keep up a good pace for my December book, but I will not abandon the entire project because I fell behind one month. I will write these twelve novels. Yes, the title of this post should be "I Won't Fail."
There is still a chance I'll be able to rally and finish Darkridge Hall in the next few days. I'm going to try to write today, but I don't know how far I'll get. The time might be better served editing one of my completed projects. Either way, wish me luck!
I think quality must come first, so if you don't feel ok for writing you should rest! To tell the truth I always intended the 12 books in 12 months as an average indication. One book can be longer than another but this does not change your goal! Mind yourself Michael.
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That's exactly my concern, Stefano. I could probably physically sit here and write a few thousands words, but would they be any good, or would they be the literary equivalent of what I feel like: crap? My goal is still in place. If I finish this one on December 3 or 5, that won't change.
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I wouldn't consider writing 11 books in 12 months a failure! And if it takes 13 months or 15 months or whatever to complete 12 good reads, so be it. I agree with Stefano that quality and your health must come first. Perhaps you may a little disappointed if you don't reach your initial goal, but that's a far cry from failure. You should be proud of your accomplishments as a writer and also for establishing a goal and working toward it. I believe it's unhealthy for us to think of ourselves as failures, or even to think of not reaching a goal as failure. Either way, it sets us up for more "failure." You have much to be proud of. I enjoy reading your novels. Keep up the good work, Michael!
ReplyDeleteThank you for the kind words, Michele. As I was writing this post I came to the same conclusion. I'll get it done, even if I have to steal a few days from December. :o)
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